life is rough, god is good.

sometimes life can be tough/rough.

and i'm not talking about like "oh my parents are getting divoriced", "i'm addicted to crack" or anything crazy like that.

i'm saying life can be rough on a personal level. we struggle within ourselves and it tears us apart inside, and sometimes the struggle overflows to the outside to the way to hold ourselves or treat others, the things we do that we wouldn't usually, and even the tears from our eyes.

how do i know this? because i am going through it!

yesterday and today, shoot probably even tomorrow, have been hard on me.

i know exactly why after this afternoon... i am letting satan get the best of me, which he is good at doing sometimes.

i am stressed and overwhelmed, and most of all i miss my best friend, my fiance, my better half... tyler. and satan has taken advantage of my weakness right now. but i will not let him go any further!

this afternoon i prayed so hard that when i got to the polk county motor vehicle office that i would hear something good[i spent my morning crying on the way to work, and had a short melt down when i got there, so i wasn't ready to have it happen again of car problems]... i don't have money to pay for a 200$ reg/license fee or any late fees. so what happens? i got up to the desk and the lady assessed all my charges... and it's only going to be a total of 60$ and she said "looks like you've still got 2.5 weeks before you even need to worry about paying for it. THANK YOU JESUS.

then all of a sudden i realized... God is always good to me, and he will never ask me to endure that which I cannot. He is my strength. My protection. The ears when I need to talk. And the advice when I need to listen.

so with that! i just pray that tomorrow will go better then yesterday, or today.

life is rough, my god is good.

and a fire has been lit within me, that is hungry for all god can give. i am eager and full of readiness, because i am not alone.

onelove.

change.

i realize that people change.

and it doesn't take a lot of time for the change to happen, but you can tell more as time goes.

even myself since i went to Maui, have changed so tremendously.

it took me awhile, but today, i know that i am a better person, who makes better choices.

i know that i am still learning, still growing, and still becoming the person i will be tomorrow.

its a never ending process, i just hope i am always making change for the better of things.

but unfortunately people change in negative ways as well, or so i have come to notice.

sometimes it makes me wonder if i really even know them like i did.

i think about when i met the person, and now what i see today.

what happened? where'd they go?

change. we need to realize it happens everyday, we are slowly changing day by day into who we will be a year from now, or 2 years, 5 years, even 20 years from now.

i know, i only want to be better than before.

how about you?

one love.

health kickin it.

so it seems like everyone around me is on a "health kick"... eating healthy, working out, etc.

i know it's a new year, and resolutions for health have been made... but not me.

in fact i don't think i've made a resolution haha!

what am i going to do now? i'm gonna try it out... a health kick that is.

working out? no, probably not. i'll run at the lake when it warms up, but chances are i'll never lift a weight.

also, a good balanced diet, low on carbs, and high in fruits, vegetables and a good source of protein along the way.... sounds good to me!

now please, don't freak out haha, i'm not trying to lose weight, heeeck no! but i am going to be healthier, it'll be better for my complextion, my hair, my teeth, my nails, everything! but yes, i do need to make sure i fit into my wedding dress, so no loosing weight, and at the same time no gaining weight... haha not that i really ever do.

so let's see how this goes, i need to keep it up til July, let's see if I can make it a permanent habit... this weeks list of things to do: go grocery shopping for myself :D

yep, that's it folks. i challenge all of you to do the same for yourselves... be healthy! if i can do this

an adventurous love.

so late last night tyler [my fiance] said something that made me smile ear to ear.

now, usually when we talk it's about our day, same ol same ol, what the plan for the next day is and how much we love eachother, yes... we are THAT couple. "I love you"..."I love you more"..."No,I love yooou more" hahah!

anyway... tyler randomly said

"you know what I can't wait for?"

and naturally i replied "what can't you wait for lol?" [yes, my lol's come naturally.]

and he said to me "...for all the adventures we go on"

and this made me smile, because marriage isn't the end of adventure, it's a brand new start.

We talked about the hunting and fishing we will do, the hikes in the BC Rockies we'll take, going camping, and eventually all the places we'll see.

i have a love for photography, and we decided we can't wait to capture every adventure we have together, the small and the big ones!

love is young and adventurous. Love does not grow old, we grow old and in love. But love does not get old, or grow old. It's what should always stay young and adventurous in our lives. Even with arthuritis all the stuff that comes with age... why should we let out love get old?

I can honestly say that me and tyler have a unique love, like not many have.

and i am so excited for the years ahead of us and all God has to offer us/what life will bring.

One<3

what's with this?

So obviously... new blog.

Why? Because I got too busy for my last one, and it really didn't have anything going on as far as consistency or theme.

This one I plan on keeping up with at least one post a week or so. [don't hold me to that though, it could be one or two a month if i get busy!]

What inspired me to start a new one? Well I will tell you in my next post, so hold tight!

One Love.